Sometimes loneliness becomes poison

Ricky smiles...

When I was fifteen, my dad caught me smoking dope.

He totally freaked and decided to send me to military 

school. I told you his whole thing

about structure and discipline, 

right?

(laughs)

Well, of course, I got kicked out.

Dad and I had this huge fight, 

and he hit me... and then the next day at school,

some kid made a crack about my haircut, and...

I just snapped. 

I wanted to kill him. And I would have.

Killed him. 

If they hadn't pulled me off.

(then)

That's when my dad put me in the hospital. 

Then they drugged me up and left me in there for two years.

American beauty, Allan Ball